The Way I Am

     I've always been shy and quiet. Over the years, these qualities have become less pronounced. I'm not scared to go start a conversation with someone anymore, but I still prefer to keep to myself around people that I don't know very well. Once I meet someone and they become a close friend to me, I am the total opposite. I'm loud and energetic. I like to have fun, but it takes me a while to get to that stage with people. When we completed the MBTI for the Hixson seminar, I knew that my result would come back as Introversion. This has been the same for my entire life, so it was no huge shock.
     When it comes to the Sensing vs. Intuition aspect of the MBTI, I think I display both preferences, but my result came back as Sensing. This surprised me a little bit becauseI tend to focus on the future more than the "here and now". Although, the other defining traits of sensing seem to describe me a little better.
     I've consistently been concerned with how others feel and what they think about me. This tends to be an overwhelming problem sometimes. Before I do anything, I tend to think about how others would view or judge me. Now, I don't always admit this. I'm fairly good at pretending I don't care what others think, but deep down, it really bothers me when people don't like me. When I try to solve problems or make decisions, I make sure no one else is really bothered by my choice. However, when conflict arises, it needs to be settled quickly. If I can't get a problem resolved quickly, I tend to stress and worry about it. I can't even go to sleep if I know someone is mad at me. I always try to come up with a solution that works for everyone, so I also agree with my MBTI results in feeling and judging. These are two very important personality preferences for my life.
     My goals reflect my personality style in many ways. My goals are viewed as what is traditional for an 18 year old girl. I want to get married, have kids, finish school, and find a major that I'm passionate about. Like I said, I'm very indecisive and my little goals will probably all change before I graduate, but these are the ones that will stay the same no matter what. I don't think many people can judge me for having these goals since many of us have the same ones, and I don't think I offended anyone by stating these goals. I've never really considered how my way of thinking is determined by my personality style. This was an interesting revelation.